Did anyone else have an amazingly blessed January?

Because, seriously, I DID! My New Years resolution this year was to start giving back to myself. To recreate "Gretchin" after spending the last 18 mo. being only Konrad's mom. I am not sure if I am the only woman that had a bit of a difficult transition period into Mommydom, but let me tell you I DID! I went form being super career girl, who owned Los Angeles, to mommy in Calabasas. Now I agree that I traded up for sure, but it took some time to feel this way.
Being a mom is hands down the most difficult job, anyone could ever ask for. It really makes you stand back and take in all the "little" things, like a school bus and the garbage man. (My son has an obsession with vehicles, and they are all "trucks, bus, or tractor.") The little things like, having a little person fall asleep on you during story time, and although you really have a thousand things to do, and if you don't move your neck is going o have a major crick in it; There is nothing in the world that could get you to move and risk waking them up. In moments like this, with there soft breath on your arm and a sippy cup dangling from his fingers, "please, don't let this moment end. Its everything I am, its everything I want to be." (lol)

I do wish there was a way of being able to reference the sweet moments, while cleaning peas out of your hair and wondering how on earth you are going to get him to eat something, before his bedtime, which so happened to occur 15 min ago.....while you have three hundred loads of laundry to do, but are unable to remove yourself from story time with out a screaming fit occurring. I get it I do, he can't talk much less read, and I do have a splendid Elmo voice, if I do say so myself, but gosh can't he just keeping looking for the silly black puppy my himself?! :)

I love motherhood, and all its silly sweet moments, but I cannot tell you how much I have grown in the past month. I recovered me. I was lost, and now I’m found, blah, blah, blah.... I got out, and after 15 mo. of looking for the perfect job, after sending out resume after resume after resume, and not getting one response worth giving a call back. It happened, the perfect job found me. I asked, and I received. I am now, very proudly, the Marketing Coordinator at A Mother's Haven, ahhhhhhh..... everything that I knew and worked so hard to master before my son, collided with everything that I learned in the last two years (when I say everything, I really do mean everything down to knowing how a nursing bra is, and how not to pick a breast pump...) AND the Account Executive for an up and coming marketing media boutique www.ChiaroscuroConcepts.com

I had never been rejected from a job, until after I had Konrad. I was always hired on the interview. I can't begin to tell you how beaten down I had become. Some women are born to stay home, I am not one of them, I love getting out of the house and contributing to things that I love, I love pretty things, I live in a place that basically requires two HUGE incomes to buy a tiny house.... :)
If you have been looking for a job and it has not come, sit down and write out EXACTLY what you want and everyday until that you find that job read that list. I strongly believe that we have a lot more to do with the happenings of the world and the universe as a whole, than we give our self credit for. Pray to what ever God you believe in, and it will find you. But first you have to really want it, and know what it is!
I hope you have a beautiful week. I am trying to remain calm in the crazy story that is moving and starting a new job, oh and I am a full time student as well!
:)
Keep your head up!